So clearly I made a huge mistake? I’ve wanted this for months and months and months but it wasn’t what I thought or wanted it to be. I don’t know why though? I’m actually so depressed right now. I thought I wanted you and I know I wanted you but.. i don’t even know what’s happening right now. I know I’m worthless to you. I wasn’t going to give in, I wasn’t going to go there.

You have this smile.. I don’t know how to explain it. You looked at me yesterday with that smile and my heart dropped. For that one second I actually felt important to you… that damn smile gets me every single fucking time and it kills. I don’t even know what to do about.

I would do anything for everything to rehappen but at the same time I want it all to just disappear. I was so concerned with my thoughts that I wasn’t even really, ah, in 100%?

We don’t have to end up together but we have to get along for the baby. We should raise her together. She didn’t do anything wrong, she deserves both parents.

I just want you to know that I… have feelings for you and I don’t know what to do. Its driving me crazy. But you already knew all this.

You should atleast tell me what the hell your feeling.

also: illbeyourkeeperforlife.tumblr.com

I care enough for both of us.

Few more days till youre in my arms, i can show you off and spend the rest of our lives together. Aidelyn Katherine Sarah Pamela Mord you are my world, you are my heart, you arey soul and my love.

Im so looking forward for tonight! After work im going home, showering, doing homework and Noels coming over ! I know its weird but im so attrached to him, although hes no Bailey. So im playing the game two ways and I shall enjoy it while it lasts. Im not looking foward to training Bailey but holding his name under my belt will be pretty damn great!

He doesnt deserve to like your name, i chose it. I searched for hours, for weeks, for even months to find you the princess name you deserve. Then he says he likes the name? He didnt even know you were a girl.. If i hadnt been using that name for awhile, i probably wouldve change it- was already attached. Plus, afterall, you look so much like an Aidelyn.

Just go away forever..

God i love you so much Aidelyn, i just cannot wait to see what you look like, how much hair you have, your birthday date, you skin colour… Just everything. You are the most important person in my life, and always will be, no less than that. So many people have loved you since the beginning and those people will love you till the end

I wish i knew where you are.